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evoladdiction: nah ur right.
evoladdiction: ok imma do everything i can kus i keep finding something else that she just.. ugh
evoladdiction: messed up
evoladdiction: shes messed up and i have to think that someone like that will NEVER be happy
evoladdiction: not EVER
evoladdiction: and thats how nicole was she tried to come back a year later kus she fcukked up  BAD and realized it... even after making me move back to cali
evoladdiction: so time i guess.
evoladdiction: i just..dont wanna
evoladdiction: be without her
evoladdiction: cus  HER ..was home
evoladdiction: now i feel so homeless.
evoladdiction: ^^the best way i have  EVER put it.
Ace W.: but u cant go back there.
Ace W.: u had a house; that wasnt a home.
evoladdiction:
evoladdiction: i did.
evoladdiction: your right
evoladdiction: she provided me shelter but def not a home. your absolutely right
Ace W.: because at anytime that house could kikk u out.
Ace W.: home u can always come to.
evoladdiction: very true.
evoladdiction: hm your so effin wise
evoladdiction: makes me sickkkkk sometimes.
Ace W.: donthatemuhfckaaa.
evoladdiction: I'm sitting here reading my list and checking ym contacts like who can i call to cry to .. who  WONT tell me bullshit they think i wanna hear... who will be real but also considerate of my situation an not think im being a baby an complainin an shit
evoladdiction: onlyt you.
evoladdiction: .only
Ace W.: nah u aint complaining the shit she did to u and the shit that she's put u through, tho i know ur side and what u did as well -- her's still negatively outweighs urs. horribly.
Ace W.: she really tipped over that level of inLOVE + inSANE.
evoladdiction: i love that
evoladdiction: i might get that tatted
evoladdiction: do you mind?
evoladdiction: such a thin line man
Ace W.: not at all.
Ace W.: there's really the line.
Ace W.: ppl think its love|hate
Ace W.: nahhh
Ace W.: its inLOVE|inSANE.
Ace W.: ooo shit i was supposed to b comin down here to get the weed n going back upstairs.
Ace W.: <-- shall b getting the .hiccups. tonight
evoladdiction: lmfoaoo
evoladdiction: me too!
evoladdiction: .sip.
evoladdiction: uh oh
evoladdiction: not drinking kuussssss im sad tho
evoladdiction: u believe me right?
evoladdiction: i havent had that urge to drink out of sadness or anger
evoladdiction: if anything that thought depresses me to  think its how i use to be
evoladdiction: man sooo soo glad you said that
evoladdiction: do u talk to angy anymore?


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.toxsikk: baby.
.toxsikk: when?
.toxsikk: mmm..
.the.[VAMP] -: hey u...when what?
.toxsikk: when did you...
.toxsikk: come
.toxsikk: here
.toxsikk: mm
.toxsikk: hi
.the.[VAMP] -: after i txt u
.toxsikk: o.
.toxsikk: uhm.
.the.[VAMP] -: uhm...its cool carry on
.toxsikk: you didnt have to . i mean im getting it out. uhm
.toxsikk: youll be confused by me right now. im confused by myself
.toxsikk: maybe just needing you to.. kind of provide guidence. your good with that
.the.[VAMP] -: not so much confused...just attempting to find ur channel
.toxsikk: yeh...
.the.[VAMP] -: guidance?
.toxsikk: i looked up stared at the seiling for 33 min... without even realizing and i saw.. so many things. the sheets beteen out bodies. felt your face  and heard the  thunder. tasted the pages between your pcovers]  spoke the words you fervenly speak.  mmm
.toxsikk: it hit me kind of hard.
.the.[VAMP] -: mmm...
.toxsikk: and i had to revert to the words of this morning[?] bear with me as it wasnt something i wished you to know over  well.. a line. never doubt that what was executed  from my lips  was in any way false. your tru;y my 1st with so many things. and that is why i hold you sooooo high  [maybe?] or maybe its just that you truly are the greatest thing that has ever happened. either wya i look into the night sky every night and  feel you. and see you and  im thankful that your here. not just here but your with me.
.toxsikk: grr typos im doing this as it comes in my head so bear with me with typos plz.
.the.[VAMP] -: no its ok love
.the.[VAMP] -: i hear u
.the.[VAMP] -: i told u how thankful i am that u told me that
.toxsikk: mmm just reallly didnt want it to be that way.
.toxsikk: so i wont lie and say that its how i wanted it.
.the.[VAMP] -: okay so u want to do it another way
.toxsikk: yes look you in the eye and tell you
.toxsikk: would have been a 1st
.the.[VAMP] -: hmm
.the.[VAMP] -: well this is an unconventional relationship
.the.[VAMP] -: everything we do is outside of the norm and never will fit into the constrictions or preset boundaries  that others adhere to
.the.[VAMP] -: i would have like to look into ur eyes the first time i said i love u
.the.[VAMP] -: as well...
.toxsikk: he effect would have maybe been the same.. but ill tell you now when u tell me  and look at me.. it will be as if the 1st time
.toxsikk: trust me
.the.[VAMP] -: i would like that..
.the.[VAMP] -: and i know that night will come
.toxsikk: sson. agreed?
.toxsikk: .soon
.the.[VAMP] -: yes
.toxsikk: i know
.the.[VAMP] -: i just need to sort some things out
.toxsikk: dont.. ok?
.toxsikk: im patient. and i know this its not all on you i have to  make myself prepared for that day..  its like..  knowing the moment youll meet the love of your life you never get that predicted so its an advantage but in the same instance its terrifying.
.the.[VAMP] -: yea i know what u mean
.the.[VAMP] -: but im not afraid...i just want my time with u to be well spent
.the.[VAMP] -: and interrupted
.the.[VAMP] -: couple weeks..tops
.toxsikk: yeh?
.toxsikk: hm
.the.[VAMP] -: ^ the way i see it
.toxsikk: i  agree.
.the.[VAMP] -: .hugg.
.the.[VAMP] -:
.toxsikk: baby
.toxsikk: .hugz you close to me as i can get you. mmm
.toxsikk: the last few days really have ment so much to me
.toxsikk: i havent had you like that in  weeks.
.the.[VAMP] -: yea i know..
.the.[VAMP] -: i didnt realize how much i missed it
.the.[VAMP] -: the intimacy...i havent been still long enuff
.toxsikk: hm.
.toxsikk: happens.
.toxsikk: it does.
.toxsikk: i really realllllllllyyyy have been soo happy. with you..[HERE]
.the.[VAMP] -: i hope u r
.toxsikk: .KISSES YOUR LIPS.
.toxsikk: yes i am
.the.[VAMP] -: because u deserve to be...and im not perfect
.the.[VAMP] -: but i try with u...and ive never wanted anything as much as i want this
.the.[VAMP] -: career...school and money...need to fall in place and then things will be some what settle
.toxsikk: i love every flaw tho do you know thta? thats what draws me to you because i  UNDERSTAND and no one ever will like i do.  no one takes the time out to get me like you do .. not even my family so its amazing to  come home to a person who holds me so close and so high
.toxsikk: [brb baby i gotta pee]
.the.[VAMP] -: ok
.toxsikk: okii bak
.the.[VAMP] -: hugg 
.toxsikk: _OKAY I'm back
.toxsikk: .... SMILE
.toxsikk: TY FOR DEALING WITH ME
.toxsikk:   do u think im crazy ?
.the.[VAMP] -: u deal with me 2
.toxsikk: i dont look at is as dealing
.toxsikk: you teach me
.the.[VAMP] -: i learn from u 2
.the.[VAMP] -: imma gobot...
.toxsikk: i absolutly love that
.toxsikk: .gin
.the.[VAMP] -: indestructable...
.toxsikk: .grin
.toxsikk: yeh?
.toxsikk: i fel that way next to you
.toxsikk: .feel
.the.[VAMP] -: these other chicks couldn't handle me or u
.toxsikk: agreed.
.toxsikk: totally agree
.toxsikk: i can look around an i laugh no one comes close to you
.toxsikk: compelling
.the.[VAMP] -: yea...u know
.the.[VAMP] -: in the past...
.the.[VAMP] -: i've always met girls...but
.the.[VAMP] -: always kept my eyes looking
.toxsikk: nice icon btw..
.toxsikk: lol
.the.[VAMP] -: but with u
.toxsikk:
.the.[VAMP] -: i truly don't
.toxsikk: i feel the same
.the.[VAMP] -: yea
.the.[VAMP] -: and i know u can relate
.toxsikk: kept a few.. in the shadows to occupy whatever "they" lacked
.toxsikk: you lack nothing
.toxsikk: ots mind boggling
.toxsikk: .its
.the.[VAMP] -: yea
.the.[VAMP] -: but i mean...like
.the.[VAMP] -: the song wrong lover by j.holiday
.toxsikk: hm
.the.[VAMP] -: u know sometimes....u start talking to a girl then something better comes along so u never get attached u just keep looking for what everyone is lacking
.the.[VAMP] -: but YOOOOOOOOo
.the.[VAMP] -: with u
.the.[VAMP] -: IM DONE
.the.[VAMP] -: i have never felt more satisfied with one woman
.toxsikk: been thinking that all day ...
.toxsikk: IM SO SERIOUS
.toxsikk: everything i look at .. i touch?  IS YOU
.toxsikk: IT DRIVES ME CRAZY BUT MAKES ME SMILE
.toxsikk: ME EITHER.
.toxsikk: hm..
.toxsikk: shit.
.toxsikk: so this is it...
.toxsikk: right?
.toxsikk: big .smile.
.the.[VAMP] -: si
.toxsikk: good
.the.[VAMP] -: this is [I.T.]
.toxsikk: bout time you found me again
.toxsikk:
.toxsikk: ***
.toxsikk: was bored.
.the.[VAMP] -: aww
.the.[VAMP] -: u found me really
.the.[VAMP] -: so good looking
.the.[VAMP] -: well this time u did
.toxsikk: lolllll
.toxsikk: what!
.toxsikk: how you figure!
.toxsikk: psh
.toxsikk: ok o k
.toxsikk: i see
.toxsikk: well YOUUUUUUUUUUUUU took the picture
.toxsikk: so now whta!
.toxsikk: .what
.the.[VAMP] -: booo
.toxsikk: ha! SCORREEEEE for [K.C]
.toxsikk: ass
.the.[VAMP] -: k.c. huh
.toxsikk: i like yaya the best  [shhhhhhhhhhhhhh]
.toxsikk:   no one calls me that or has ver
.toxsikk: and it makes me feel good when you do.
.toxsikk: ok noughhh confessionnns!!
.toxsikk: *confessions
.toxsikk: damn nails
.toxsikk: lol
.the.[VAMP] -: i love callin u yaya
.toxsikk: i can tell
.toxsikk: do you know?
.toxsikk: i  notice every little thing  ABOUT [Y.O.U.]
.toxsikk: i do
.toxsikk: hmm dont say much but i notice.
.toxsikk: just ok. know?
.toxsikk:   hmmmm  i put on some sort of a front but i cant help submitting to your essence. it turns me on soooo much
.toxsikk: never  EVER happened before.
.toxsikk: [veggie]food 4 thought
.the.[VAMP] -: u put on a front huh
.the.[VAMP] -: smoke and mirrors arent necessary in this space
.toxsikk: yhe?
.toxsikk: .yeh
.the.[VAMP] -: just like u said when i came back...why should i keep her in limbo when i know she's what i want
.toxsikk: hm so mel... YOU.[SEE] ME?
.the.[VAMP] -: i dont play games with u...never have
.toxsikk: indeed
.toxsikk: your my crving
.toxsikk: i  WANT YOU ALWAYS
.the.[VAMP] -: same here
.toxsikk: HM.
.toxsikk: .SMILING.
.the.[VAMP] -: but i remember when u told me that
.the.[VAMP] -: and i was like...
.the.[VAMP] -: yo i really admire her for not attempting to "play hard to get"
.the.[VAMP] -: cause like whyyyyy
.the.[VAMP] -: when u know and i know
.the.[VAMP] -: its a losing game
.toxsikk: .laughing.
.toxsikk: yeh?
.toxsikk: well only with you .. kus well frankly?
.toxsikk: ur a  sag
.toxsikk: im one too we  KNOW one anova
.toxsikk: do we not.
.toxsikk: not just in that aspect but hm. your  INSIDE ME  now
.the.[VAMP] -: i agree
.the.[VAMP] -: u know my move b4 i make it and breathe my breath b4 i take it
.toxsikk: mm indeed.
.toxsikk: so inhale me.. in this moment
.the.[VAMP] -: i smell ur essence
.toxsikk: and i feel yours
.toxsikk: thats what i work off of .. did you notice?
.toxsikk: feeling you
.the.[VAMP] -: yea i know..
.the.[VAMP] -: i've never wanted to be a feeler
.the.[VAMP] -: but i release those restrictions with u
.toxsikk: one in the same
.the.[VAMP] -: and i absorb ur essence
.the.[VAMP] -: and channel u into my space...thats what i thrive on
.the.[VAMP] -: did u kno that?
.toxsikk: no
.toxsikk: i didnt
.toxsikk: hm
.toxsikk: wow
.toxsikk: poweful
.toxsikk: .powerful
.the.[VAMP] -: even when ur next to me...i will still thrive on ur essence
.toxsikk: you know.. your the best thats ever happened to me/
.toxsikk: i feel the same
.toxsikk: i do
.toxsikk: like i can never get enough
.the.[VAMP] -: depth
.the.[VAMP] -: u have as much as i do
.the.[VAMP] -: it's a bottomless pit
.toxsikk: hm think so ?
.toxsikk: ,mmmm
.the.[VAMP] -: yes i do
.the.[VAMP] -: u dont
.the.[VAMP] -: ur aim away..?
.the.[VAMP] -:  when did i send u that.
.toxsikk: aw baby.
.toxsikk: you  sent it...
.toxsikk: mm
.toxsikk: welll
.toxsikk: exact date?
.toxsikk:   i have to look but about a week and some change ago
.the.[VAMP] -: it was recent right?
.toxsikk: i believe? idk i ve had it on my phoe
.toxsikk: .phone
.toxsikk: yes
.toxsikk: and it means so much to me when u write me things i keep it on my phone .. like when i miss you i  read it
.the.[VAMP] -: yea i do that 2
.toxsikk: yeh?
.toxsikk: thought it was me being all lovesick
.the.[VAMP] -: i've never written for or about anyone the way i write about u
.the.[VAMP] -: u know my art is the most sacred thing to...me
.the.[VAMP] -: besides you now
.the.[VAMP] -: there's you & there's my art
.toxsikk: i know it s.
.toxsikk: and i can see the difference .. like i said  ONE IN THE SAME ive never ever written bout anyone the way i do ... with you.. it boggles me how much you inspire.
.the.[VAMP] -: yea...and well writing for some1 i never expect to get anything back in return..
.toxsikk: neither do i... i nevr have actually
.the.[VAMP] -: but thats a gift we share...something sacred we both can give to each other..
.toxsikk: so the fact that you understand what i write
.toxsikk: and give me so much back ..
.toxsikk: mm
.toxsikk: makes me ... ant you that much more
.the.[VAMP] -: writing is very intimate...i've never been in a relationship with anyone who possessed that ability as intensely as i do
.the.[VAMP] -: til u...ofcourse
.toxsikk: hm i concour.
.the.[VAMP] -: yea
.the.[VAMP] -: u wanna know something?
.toxsikk: of course.
.the.[VAMP] -: Death…. became H.E.R. only dream…so S.H.E. chased [it] like something out of a movie.|scene devoid of fears and unwilling to align with the resistance she bladed herself and felt her pulse quicken. Physical pain….embrace it. Harness it. Feed off the energy. Release it. Forget it. Never conforming for society and had a personal vendetta against all forms of authority. Plagued by episodes of extreme anger and extreme mellow. Her true nature was neither. A not so blatant disregard for the concerns of others…because her superficial charm was so disarming…they would keep coming back for more and more…but failure to maintain friendships and stay in relationships was ever more constant because of her becoming easily bored.  Manipulation and deceit were like second nature to her, however there was
.the.[VAMP] -: was another side…a selfless and giving side. One that cared for those whom she had never even met and wanted the universe to be a better place for all it’s inhabitants. The one who would sacrifice their life to save the souls of all those she cared for deeply. The person who wanted a stable and substantial life and bank account to accompany…it. The one who had a strong sense of self-purpose and felt like she had a supreme and divine mission to complete while here on EARTH. But which me…will ii allow you to see. Of course I’m looking in the mirror …talking to me. Or this she who stares back. There are others but these are the 2 main characters. The protagonist and thee antagonist.


.toxsikk: mm crazy mirrored indeed
.toxsikk: I look and relfecting back  is you... [is me.]
.toxsikk: totally saw that beautiful words
.toxsikk: ahhhhhhhhh .
.toxsikk: . pulls you to me an kisses you deeply.
.the.[VAMP] -:
Inability to maintain a constant pattern of living. my life is like a playlist compiled in the dark and set to RANDOM. Shuffle the cards as many times as you would like…surely there are a few cards missing in this deck. But S.H.E. gets [m.e.]

.the.[VAMP] -: ty baby...
.the.[VAMP] -: i knew u would understand
.the.[VAMP] -: .kisses u back.
.toxsikk: yes its plain eng,lish to me
.toxsikk: i feel the same
.toxsikk: so much i read like wow thats sooo me.....
.toxsikk: but its her as well. and one in the same you and i.. it make s me so proud to think.. im the one.. for you im the one you fell for. im the one  MENT.
.toxsikk: no comparison ....  no one comes close to you.
.the.[VAMP] -: yea u speak for me 2 with the statement
.the.[VAMP] -: just wanted to share something intimate with u...my secret from the world but not so much...cause u already know
.the.[VAMP] -: ur on the [in]side now...
.the.[VAMP] -: and u will remain here...
.toxsikk: thats how i  FEEL omg exactly.
.toxsikk: like i wish to hold you inside me
.toxsikk: forever from the world its so damn corupt
.toxsikk: to sheild you keep you to myself
.toxsikk: im selfish only when it comes to you i dont cre
.toxsikk: .care.